LOST HEART
My friend said that she feels that I lost my heart... am i really not the person that everyone sees me as..? am i not?
i am at times confuse as well...perhaps.It's not lost heart. i lost my soul. since 6 years ago. i lost my soul. only yesterday i realised that i've been living without my in'self. thanks for reminding
lend me your shoulder...make me cry please.i have been very happy before...until last christmas.i felt so far away from you...never before. you make me never love a person seriously..i have been hurting others. you make me hurt others and you hurt me as well....do you know that...will you feel the pain if i am pain??
be it that there's someone inside you all the while. be it that i never ever so close to you all the while....just to let you know...i will treat you as my everest good friend like never before. so please treasure yax..i will not miss you. i will not cry for you. i will not want you so much, never again. thanks.
because of you, i have no courage to love others...i always face those that loves me with mask. not me at all.. even though i know that's not myself, i dun think i've did anything wrong. but to think about it, aren't this unfair to me... you have been hurting my and taking me along with you without yourself to notice. not WHY. not WHY NOT. but NOT AGAIN. i'm going to find what that belongs to me in you. so...thanks for being my friend...and sincerely hope you never will appear here as something upset, or anything like that again.
i wonder i will regret saying all this words..but still..take care yax..
well......turning 20 years old!! wahha....miss yax all my friends...
all the best for you...
and as for my dearies...love yax....meet up soon!!muackx..still happy ever after.
Regards Love..