Friday, December 05, 2008
~ 08:40 ~
i truly do not understand...was confused since that day...why am i doing something like that to myself..isnt't this being hurtful...am i finding trouble for myself. wordering!! haha you make me feel so different from before. you claimed that things are totally impossible. you said i might be thinking a little more than no. am i? are you?
can things happen in a much normal why. can us really be sincere to one another. i sincerely hope for and so. i do want to only keep things all inside and with no actions taken. i am willingly to give up my position for you. arent you to be happy for the unexpected promotions? is it really as what she say. it's simply no trust. or plots are discovered. no and never. things will not happen. i know. and i believe.
not to take the sorrows and regretful of him on him. i will not.. it is just too clear that you are not the reason for everything. hence why so much trouble. there's too many things for me. things need to be done. and they are not forever task. it needs to be finished. i am holding real tight. not thinking of letting go. she's right. it's me who make myself suffer. i deserved it.
no matter how distance are our worlds. i really want to adapt for you. but do i have a chance to do so? i know cause the distance. but i am pulling what's in the first place. i want and i urge for. i desire and i think of..i am unclear of the path ahead. i notsure if this is the best choice. best for me only. unsure if this will brings me to my destination. hope and wish
please treat me as per normal...not like this.i don't like this way. either to put a full stop as early as possible. or i can return to my orriginal position. if upset things are the reluctant cause. i will leave silently. to make sure i never been to and inside you. love
Regards Love..
