Tuesday, December 23, 2008
~ 22:20 ~
you left nothing..not even a picture....i accepted your reason for everything...i will not ask for chances...i will live even happily like never before....but it's still something that is worth to remember....once i met you.
whether you feel the same. it doesn't matter anymore. we're moving towards opposite directions, from now on, nothing connected, nothing attracts...hope for the bes in yours..as mine will be good..
ending on one story and here, then anoter story started....should it be said as story or this time round it's different....either dun come near me..or if you want to be close...stay here and always. stop moving around...stop turning around..of our life will simple that confusing.
i never leave my tears on any those man...you. mak things change. perhaps i am no long the me i ever know...what i came across today..i know the past have die. do i really take things that easy! i can happily get into somebody's life that simple..and mine: my life...remains ad dirty and unclear....
you will see many things..but they are so near yet so far...please close with and to me. can we don't walk what others been before. please. of just make it clear that this just aren't part of the story.give me my life..no one need to save me..i can save myself from the cliff from that well...
the dark ones will always be there....they are fixed...pain inside that you cant even feel.dun force me please.no remover for it. AM I REALLY TO THE EXTEND TO SAY ALL THIS? WHOEVER WHO READ THIS PLEASE-TAKE IT AS I AM JUST FEELING DOWN AND NOTHING MUCH.
Regards Love..
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
~ 08:04 ~
i dun like who i am now. seems to be doing fine but it seems not fine either. i dunnoe what i am trying to say. i just fall inside le. just that it's not deep as it is. the majority says>just make things clear before it's too late.>before things hurt more than now...>i say perhaps i need time to ensure i am safe. take my time. but time is precious. and i do not want to waste it.
is it that only when i try my best to ignore then things will be different. that it will be you who begins..i do not like it to happen this way. neither that way. yes! we need space. arent i giving more than enough space? i didnt?
can i be grant by a chance or should i say another chance. please. i do not know why i m pleasing. but please.i need a chance than myself struggling to please. not to be pleased but is to please.this phrase has never appear in me. i am tired of thinking of how to earn the trust. take it as i am lazy.manytimes.there are more kinds of relationship than LOVE.
Regards Love..
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
~ 01:18 ~
STOP STOP STOP.......ARGH!!!! WHAT YOU WANT??!!!!
Regards Love..
Monday, December 08, 2008
~ 08:57 ~
wahaha...daddy mummy's feast!
god cousin's wedding!!
Regards Love..
Friday, December 05, 2008
~ 08:40 ~
i truly do not understand...was confused since that day...why am i doing something like that to myself..isnt't this being hurtful...am i finding trouble for myself. wordering!! haha you make me feel so different from before. you claimed that things are totally impossible. you said i might be thinking a little more than no. am i? are you?
can things happen in a much normal why. can us really be sincere to one another. i sincerely hope for and so. i do want to only keep things all inside and with no actions taken. i am willingly to give up my position for you. arent you to be happy for the unexpected promotions? is it really as what she say. it's simply no trust. or plots are discovered. no and never. things will not happen. i know. and i believe.
not to take the sorrows and regretful of him on him. i will not.. it is just too clear that you are not the reason for everything. hence why so much trouble. there's too many things for me. things need to be done. and they are not forever task. it needs to be finished. i am holding real tight. not thinking of letting go. she's right. it's me who make myself suffer. i deserved it.
no matter how distance are our worlds. i really want to adapt for you. but do i have a chance to do so? i know cause the distance. but i am pulling what's in the first place. i want and i urge for. i desire and i think of..i am unclear of the path ahead. i notsure if this is the best choice. best for me only. unsure if this will brings me to my destination. hope and wish
please treat me as per normal...not like this.i don't like this way. either to put a full stop as early as possible. or i can return to my orriginal position. if upset things are the reluctant cause. i will leave silently. to make sure i never been to and inside you. love
Regards Love..
