rene

2010-06-01T08:55:00.000-07:00

wow wow wow!! been weeks though since the last post! waha!

1 what's love? what exactly is love to you?

she said: be fortunate to have one who love you more

i said: be with the one that you are happy with

he said: good, i agreed

well. it's complicated. but by simplifying it, it's just nonsense. be who you are.

true enough. you can enjoy and urge for freedom now. however, when it is time to settle down, what's your selection. or is there an alternative?

you are afraid that others know who you actually are. what to do. that's you. so what people around claimed that you changed. the world is changing and moving every moment. it's the matter of moving forward or falling back. what directions are you heading?

i enjoy myself recently. lots of fun, laughter. that split moment, i realized i have not been quarrelling with anyone. wahaha. good!!! well done ong zhi ling!

after those conversations, i believe we see each other clearer. we did not mention many curcial words! i supposed. yet, i know you know we know!

i love you, you, you and you.

blessed! muacky!=)

lovely and cheers

ong zhi ling

02 06 2010

00 07

2010-03-15T08:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Bithday to ME!

unsure when's my last blogging..wahhaa..well..blogging doesn't seem to be that trendy now!! wahaha...so! who's blogging now?!

I am 21!!! Celebrated 21st for jeng and now me!!!! soon will be Anna>Xinlin>zalina>Shuyun!!! Love yax dearies!!!!

To BeBe:

Thank you for all that you've done for me. It's appreciated! (same to all pals!) I enjoy the time spent. And those bubbles!!! MuaWahahahahaha!!!

I know upset situations always occur between us! However, it did not/ never affect our LOVE at all! 3 more days - to our anniversary!! wahah. we'd never celebrate any anniversary regardless months/ days. so are we celebrating this time round? Or another 10 years? wahaha.....

Bebe-We are not the best. But we are the best for each other!! muawahaa.....

I am smart in the beginning!!! I am stupid NOW! wahaha..how how how. I also think that I am getting more gutless..

i no longer afraid of those insect thingy!!!!!!!!!! but i am so protected on politics, ill treated by others etc.... too protected that i am not sure how exactly to protect myself. been injuring(physically and mentally) myself so much recently..

Bebe-thank you for all this protection. (thanks for all pals as well)

But if one day i am lost within myself. how am i suppose to survive. relationship and all others SHIPS are so scary. They can be firm outside by fragile inside. Being together and losing each other is simply simple. Bebe - We aren't that fragile are we!!! support me please=]=]=]

I love you

Best Regards
MISS ONG!!!!

once again - happy birthday to ME!!

2009-09-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

在图书馆，也许真是一见钟情。当时的我们，一定没有想到会变成现在这样。

刚开始，三天一小吵，四天一大吵。我们不是也这么地走过去。

那一瞬间的后悔，现在都已经消失了。

依然活在自己的世界。唯一和其他人不同的是，醒来后，你并没有消失。

没有离开的你，接受了我的过去。愿意和我一块面对往后的每一天。

常常想放弃的我，最后还是紧紧地贴着你。

害怕有一天会因为他人的反对，你走了。

反对我的过去，反对我的心，我的人和我的眼泪。

现在，谁都不可以放手。因为我们的手已和心一样，被一条管子连系着。

谢谢你。

2009-09-22T08:15:00.000-07:00

Rambutans, you see them with that unfriendly outer shell. Perhaps they do not want to look this way but they do not have a choice. Unlike us, if we do not like our look, there are still surgeries that can help us to be who we want to be. “Never judge a person by his looks” Are you such a person? Whenever you judge a person, there are many out there that are judging you as well. Rambutans, even though the unfriendly outer shell, they are actually sweet and nice inside them. How a person looks like does not determine how kind the person is. An ugly man has the right to own a kind heart. A handsome guy can turn himself to evil. While chewing the flesh of Rambutans, you will taste the semi-hard shell around the seed. That is also alike to us. Regardless how close are we with our family and friends, there may be something deep inside us that we choose to remain silent. It is something which we choose to share only to ourselves.

Written By

Ong Zhi Ling Serene

Dated 22nd September 2009

2009-05-09T08:42:00.000-07:00

宝贝!!

Manytimes, there is no need for us to say thingys out loud. We both know it well exactly within us. Regardless of, I will be happy..nono..bliss"ed"!!wahaha. With lotss lotss of love , care and concern.

all my friends out there. please dun yell at me on being biased once again?! wahaha.

Being with you, i am not just fortunate, but I am simply in my bestest luck! Out of nowhere, we met each other. We always wonder why, but didnt we agree that it's just fate!haha.

I do not need to prove anything to you. Nonetheless, you can feel it, don't you?! wahaha. Ong Zhi Ling Serene Said to Goh Yan Jun Bryan: You may not be the best of all, you are just the best for me. No vow No swearing of any. Just some sentances to calm you and me. BeBe. I love you.

How bad the past was, it had past. waha. you will be the one who walk me through my life for the upcoming days, so you have to ensure you are in good shape yax! muackx=]=].

Best Regards and Loves

"Ong Goh BeBe"

>_<"

2009-05-07T07:11:00.000-07:00

he will be back tomorrow. wahaha.. cheers and loves

so irritating

so confusing

dun give you a inch you want a yard

nah beh

irritating lah

is not scare is respect

stupid

dumb

crazy

must take care of yourself hor

i miss you

like that only??

i love you

byebye!!

like that only??

muackx!!=]=]

and to sujeng xinlin shu yun anna zalina..awaiting for our next gathering..remember yax. once every two weeks like that. wahaha.. and hor..we come up with a sixth's fund!!wahha..every month each 20 dollar for instance. we'll discuss this further!! cheerss..

to zalina: must take good care of yourself. follow your heart. you have us!!=]=]

wahaha..cheers and miss yaz all my dearies.. all dearies not forgotten!!misses too!

2009-04-21T09:12:00.000-07:00

this friday will be the day. wahaha. better take care of yourself yax. anything must consult your friend. inside got inside de rules de. must follow. cannot everythingy also LL or what...understand??!! roger??!!wahha..whatever. what need must buy. dun people say what you do why. do the right thingy. later kana then weekends burn le!!noted not!!!dotxx.wahaha. eat well sleep will. allow weekends to rest well and to motivate you to work hard!wahaha..dun miss me so much yax. will update you on whatever thingy that maybe happened to and/ or on me!!=]=]

dearies. must love me more and more. whahaha.can have dinner or lunch or any meal together during weekends or at times weekdays!!woo..lalalalala....wahha..

jeng. lin. me. ah jun.

i try my best not to eat other people throw the biscuits...or jam ah...bread...anythingy. wahaha..=]=] and i try my very de best not throw food to other...must remind and control me yax..wahaha

well. on the other hand. wahah..ah jun de friend. wahah..you all can ask me out! whaha...dotxx. oh my god. dumb woman!!!!!=]=]

enjoy life to whoever i have see before.

cheers

2009-04-05T09:41:00.000-07:00

there are still so many things to learn, particularly for me, in relationship and whatever ship thing... and work work work thingy..waha..well..to think, i am only 20 years de old! whaha..so please guide me through my dearie. i may have change a lot since dunnoe when. forgive whatever that i have done wrong! love yax dearies.

those old old people out there....see it... come queue and guide me!!!whaha

my dearieS...

to zalina: you free this week OR next week for steamboating??whaha

to xinlin: how about you?!

to shu yun: baby... you leh?? reply me okax!!??

to anna: i know you are seldom here..so i will personally call you or mgs you!!whaha!

to sujeng: please be patient!! whaha...will get back to you soon!!

and more... please note for the above 5 lady!!waha...

inform me what are you more concern about when steamboating??

the variety of food( btw, steamboat do have many food to choose many times**)
the monetary matters? price range?? budgeting? let me know!!
the people who go!!whaha though i know you all misses each other a lotx!!!
lastly...level of appreciating the planner's plans >>ong zhi ling serene!!

whaha..

MR. BRYAN GOH...PEASE KINDLY DO NOT COMPLAIN I BLOG SO LONG. I AM COMMUNICATING TO MY FRIENDS...A BUDGET CHANNEL OF COMMUNICATING!!

HEREBY apologise of my super bad de attitude. saying sorry and i will grow up with you!! and my friends!!!!

love and regards

DaMeiNue Co.

Singapore!!

2009-03-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

let's review the pictures of Ms. Ong and her Friends...before tomorrow!!waha..

2009-03-21T08:42:00.000-07:00

waht will you do when you are confuse??

wahaha...

i am who i am....you are who you are..

wahaha..

misses jeng! Lin! yun! zalina! Anna! mucky!!

all the best too MKo6o2!!wahaha.

2009-03-11T11:32:00.000-07:00

1stly, thanks Ms. Anna!! having "dinnar" (w) me!! love yax!!!whahaa

2ndly, thanks boss for your PRECIOUS time!!!whaha..

To BOSS: dun try so hard to be strong yax...so what a man...can be weak at times...i will forgive you..no worries..meanwhile...dun think so much..everytime say okax. fine. very good...dumb lah...who will always and eveyday good de...i very smart de okax!!! since you dun like hypocrites..backstabbers..liars..bitches..bastards...i shall put a curse okax...whoever of the above must be 1 000 000 000m away from BOSS, now and always!=]=]

AND, but hor...at times..must have 1 or 2 those not very nice people in life to let you experience yax... if too much then tell me..i smash them for BOSS.whaha...=]=] cheers yax...

P.S must inside and outside, both happy...or else i will smash you first....=]=]

muackx to everyone out there..enjoy life..

Ms. SJ Tan, Ms. XL Tok, Ms. SH Chen, Ms. SY Than, Ms. zalina!! muackx!!whaha..cyax soon

2009-03-05T08:12:00.000-08:00

LOST HEART

My friend said that she feels that I lost my heart... am i really not the person that everyone sees me as..? am i not?

i am at times confuse as well...perhaps.It's not lost heart. i lost my soul. since 6 years ago. i lost my soul. only yesterday i realised that i've been living without my in'self. thanks for reminding

lend me your shoulder...make me cry please.i have been very happy before...until last christmas.i felt so far away from you...never before. you make me never love a person seriously..i have been hurting others. you make me hurt others and you hurt me as well....do you know that...will you feel the pain if i am pain??

be it that there's someone inside you all the while. be it that i never ever so close to you all the while....just to let you know...i will treat you as my everest good friend like never before. so please treasure yax..i will not miss you. i will not cry for you. i will not want you so much, never again. thanks.

because of you, i have no courage to love others...i always face those that loves me with mask. not me at all.. even though i know that's not myself, i dun think i've did anything wrong. but to think about it, aren't this unfair to me... you have been hurting my and taking me along with you without yourself to notice. not WHY. not WHY NOT. but NOT AGAIN. i'm going to find what that belongs to me in you. so...thanks for being my friend...and sincerely hope you never will appear here as something upset, or anything like that again.

i wonder i will regret saying all this words..but still..take care yax..

well......turning 20 years old!! wahha....miss yax all my friends...

all the best for you...

and as for my dearies...love yax....meet up soon!!muackx..still happy ever after.

Trapped In Love.**

2009-02-25T09:54:00.001-08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

2009-02-13T12:24:00.000-08:00

today! we celebrated jeng's birthday in advanced!!!wahhaa. these people went ka-la-o-K!!
my singing's are even worse now!! whaha... THE NINTH. DAY..=]...
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is age really a problem for a relationship? a different of 10 to 20? what's more matters in a relationship? is the true love that occurs in the beginning..or the needs that required in the end..? what will happen when two person's topics are mainly children, money, works...is it still love like love for children, love fore works...or concerns..

are you able to accept woman 20 younger than you? whaha

what am i doing.? crazy? haiyo.. anyone who read this..please ignore than questionings. thanks..whaha...woman at this age having their "hua chi" state of mind. whaha. in the middle of the night...woohoo...miss yax...

can you hold my hands
wash my lips
feel my beats
hug me
love me
forever'

how long is our forever? or yours?
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perhaps..you are totally out of the list. the list of why i hold you back for so long. the missing is no longer here. the urge and wants are never so touchless. you ran away? or i let you off? well.it doesnt matters...you said that's one you have inside you 'now'...go for it then..i am as an annoyance yax. whaha. no worries. i am fine not belong to you. as i am happily leading my life now. regardless how happy or sorrows..i have myself there for me. i know. and you have "her". take care!
Once Loving You
Ong'Rene

2008-12-23T22:20:00.000-08:00

you left nothing..not even a picture....i accepted your reason for everything...i will not ask for chances...i will live even happily like never before....but it's still something that is worth to remember....once i met you.

whether you feel the same. it doesn't matter anymore. we're moving towards opposite directions, from now on, nothing connected, nothing attracts...hope for the bes in yours..as mine will be good..

ending on one story and here, then anoter story started....should it be said as story or this time round it's different....either dun come near me..or if you want to be close...stay here and always. stop moving around...stop turning around..of our life will simple that confusing.

i never leave my tears on any those man...you. mak things change. perhaps i am no long the me i ever know...what i came across today..i know the past have die. do i really take things that easy! i can happily get into somebody's life that simple..and mine: my life...remains ad dirty and unclear....

you will see many things..but they are so near yet so far...please close with and to me. can we don't walk what others been before. please. of just make it clear that this just aren't part of the story.give me my life..no one need to save me..i can save myself from the cliff from that well...

the dark ones will always be there....they are fixed...pain inside that you cant even feel.dun force me please.no remover for it. AM I REALLY TO THE EXTEND TO SAY ALL THIS? WHOEVER WHO READ THIS PLEASE-TAKE IT AS I AM JUST FEELING DOWN AND NOTHING MUCH.

2008-12-10T08:04:00.000-08:00

i dun like who i am now. seems to be doing fine but it seems not fine either. i dunnoe what i am trying to say. i just fall inside le. just that it's not deep as it is. the majority says>just make things clear before it's too late.>before things hurt more than now...>i say perhaps i need time to ensure i am safe. take my time. but time is precious. and i do not want to waste it.

is it that only when i try my best to ignore then things will be different. that it will be you who begins..i do not like it to happen this way. neither that way. yes! we need space. arent i giving more than enough space? i didnt?

can i be grant by a chance or should i say another chance. please. i do not know why i m pleasing. but please.i need a chance than myself struggling to please. not to be pleased but is to please.this phrase has never appear in me. i am tired of thinking of how to earn the trust. take it as i am lazy.manytimes.there are more kinds of relationship than LOVE.

2008-12-09T01:18:00.000-08:00

STOP STOP STOP.......ARGH!!!! WHAT YOU WANT??!!!!

2008-12-08T08:57:00.000-08:00

wahaha...daddy mummy's feast!

god cousin's wedding!!

forgiven or there's regrets?

2008-12-05T08:40:00.000-08:00

i truly do not understand...was confused since that day...why am i doing something like that to myself..isnt't this being hurtful...am i finding trouble for myself. wordering!! haha you make me feel so different from before. you claimed that things are totally impossible. you said i might be thinking a little more than no. am i? are you?

can things happen in a much normal why. can us really be sincere to one another. i sincerely hope for and so. i do want to only keep things all inside and with no actions taken. i am willingly to give up my position for you. arent you to be happy for the unexpected promotions? is it really as what she say. it's simply no trust. or plots are discovered. no and never. things will not happen. i know. and i believe.

not to take the sorrows and regretful of him on him. i will not.. it is just too clear that you are not the reason for everything. hence why so much trouble. there's too many things for me. things need to be done. and they are not forever task. it needs to be finished. i am holding real tight. not thinking of letting go. she's right. it's me who make myself suffer. i deserved it.

no matter how distance are our worlds. i really want to adapt for you. but do i have a chance to do so? i know cause the distance. but i am pulling what's in the first place. i want and i urge for. i desire and i think of..i am unclear of the path ahead. i notsure if this is the best choice. best for me only. unsure if this will brings me to my destination. hope and wish

please treat me as per normal...not like this.i don't like this way. either to put a full stop as early as possible. or i can return to my orriginal position. if upset things are the reluctant cause. i will leave silently. to make sure i never been to and inside you. love

a little nono

2008-11-28T08:53:00.001-08:00

haha..thought i know everything as clear as whoever..i supposed things are all under control...aren't them? well...who wonders...after got know of somethingys that are not nice...i dun feel good..am i still believing all the words? or am i deciding on letting go things...forgive and forget...haha..funny and stupid thing...just take it that i do not know anything...make this the start of myself....once again ongzhilingserene(rene) is born!!=]=]

love love
miss big ong!!

一个他

2008-11-16T07:57:00.000-08:00

没有以前的熟悉. 现在,此刻-我仍旧幸福.
新的机会, 新的快乐, 新的适应, 新的笑容, 新的爱, 新的人...我爱你!
追求的目标, 未来会是怎样....一笑而过

至少现在我有你!=]

things might seems different at present..but to me it's nothing much different from last week...i am very clear of wha i am doing...also...whether i will regret of my actions 10 days weeks months later...now...i am doing real fine...no tears...not at all...maybe some may say i a not true to you and myself...but i wan once true....

i see something in you...the ambitions you have...the sense of sucure i have from you even if it's just via calls.. perhaps if you are th one need now or future...you are great!

cheers!=]

今天有一点痛..

2008-11-13T05:56:00.000-08:00

不知道为什么会这样. 对着这个他, 我有想逃跑的冲动. 不是不愿放手, 而是不想自私. 我可以说很多的对不起. 但我已经伤痛你了. 抱歉....

今天, 对着那个他..我承认心动了. 我有想着他. 他说他也是想着我..我很清醒, 也很清楚-梦可以很美, 当然它也可以很短暂..不像恶梦..一辈子都不会怠慢,忘记..每个人都有自己的秘密...不是吗?

经验..哈哈...

school over there....once again..

2008-11-06T06:17:00.000-08:00

hi there. school reopens for me again...and of course for many out there too. ha. i do miss the school days...but when i am back in there...there might be some changes with the people working together..but problems occur...as usual..ha...but well....we are smart people...so we sure sure die die can come up with smart solutions....no worries to ALL...cheers

i have been thinking of someone else than you...how and why..ha.even economic changes everyday every moment...people changes too. what i need and want last week does not mean that thats what i need and want today...even tomorrow..thongs might be different..or even never can like before..ha.

so what if you cry...so what if you want to die..haha..though i know you are too difficult for me...someone ....you have to disappear...you making me down...you make me afraid once again..

the break ups' qoutes...

2008-10-29T10:11:00.000-07:00

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

>i've not found this glass..the shape and size are still blurish...i promised to be very careful with it...only you and me that belonged to...no other souls...only us.

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

> i thought i might have seen you somewhere...i'm confused. someone who are already forgotten long ago...someone i love..he's lost..in the mist of nowhere..

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

> i am alive after once dead...but the problem follows...regardless...it haunts...like never before...

Tears are often the telescope by which men see far into heaven.

> we have none of those many connections....maybe one that cannot be seen or touch...as i can feel them...at times..

I had rather have a fool make me merry, than experience make me sad.

> well, you make me learnt...i see joy and glow in the experiences..do you...not.

what happen to these people...

2008-10-27T09:02:00.000-07:00

hahhaa...today my day is doing fine...jus a little little trouble thing that i can comment on..hahaa...maybe talk about other day than today..haha...on saturday..4E2 had a class gathering...haha..wonder hows the attendance.hahaa..think it must be better than my planning..haha..."a class of 4" dotxx...

wonder everyone change..haha...lots or little..hahaa..i miss everyone...i thought i have let go everything of you...but i didnt..not at all i realise...or being very selfish and greedy..when i need somebody,,you come to mind, never failed...ha.thats very funny and amusing isnt it..haha..he is not good..and you are not the one anymore...haha..free..i am release once again by you..or perhaps myself.ha

nobody knows.ha."we are of a kind, arent we?".always contradicting ourselves..taking things too serious or not serious at all...ha..whenever i want an answer...i always have...or is that my illusion..i am a liar to myself..am i..telling others to be strong..must be strong..can myself do that...positive positive...i have been very positive whenever the matter to deal with is you...but i will still cry in fear...dreaming the unrealistic ones...when dream is unrealistic itself..

you saved me from many disasters....you were took to me as someone who protected me in secret.ha.by messages..you saved me...every time...sounds ridiculous yax.hahah...cheers

i am irritated by:-(haha)

problems usually comes from these people...why....they are just like me...stay here grow up here...why being so nasty...

thinking that you are the queen and king...your country has a high standard of living..so what..you might be earning what others don't earn...this doesnt means you can abuse your right here and anyhow...what you think you people are...

"RESPECT PEOPLE BEFORE YOU WANT TO BE RESPECTED"

idiotidiotidiot

2008-10-24T09:21:00.000-07:00

i wonder why...i wonder how....why can a person nag sooooo long....oh my god.....

shut up!!!! dotxx....

but my quota very high.....dotxx

yoyowoohoo!!1

2008-10-19T09:33:00.000-07:00

feeling something different... went sentosa today with two dearieS!!haha...so fun and so happy..

things are doing good and fine, so far so best!!

today go is bacon, now is cha sui!! haha....ang ang gong gong!! redred and red!!
wahaha...already start planning on outing(s) next year..wahhaa...

countdown for new year(2008-2009) will be held at Ongzhiling's house! any changes will be informed to you, so no worries....haha...
chalet- planner(ms sabrina tan!) if 6 pax: food-2, booking and cleaning-2, program and shit job-2 !! if 4 pax: booking and cleaning-1, program and shit job-1, food-2!!
cruise any interested??? hahhaa....holiday of 2009!!!

regards and cheers..goodnight..

miss smart!!!

hey hey everYbody!!!

2008-10-17T11:26:00.000-07:00

wahaaa...hi everyone...and all dearies....miss you all much and always....

to her: i believed that you've grow up after so many things had happened. you learnt and grow up....since that day...you not only have me....you have US. you lost one trouble....but you gained five troubles...us!!! worth transactions man!!! love love..

to her: times are bad to you perhaps...but be strong...i know you must be in great pain now...i do not know how can i do to help...i dun know...i just want you to be as before..smile...anything must come to me okax...thanks and love yax...

to him: everything will be fine after times.....your love ones will reunion soon...no worries...sometimes, you let go something, you gain something too... miss yax...

i want all you to be good...i miss you especially....never anyone like you!!! never....you are the one and only...just like those who i love and love me..... cheers everyone...blessed!!

things are doing fine on my side...i am very clear that i am selfish...one day, you will regret...

cheers and regards
ong love rene...

jus want you to be good

2008-10-09T22:28:00.000-07:00

i have nothing much to comment on....you can make your own decisions...but when you are down or you failed...i will still be there for you....whether how wrongs you are....to me or to anyone...i will still forgive you...i will...

i cannot promise many things to many people...but to you....i will be there...now and always....there's two or threes that say we might not be always...forever....but i know..i desire to stay by you....you have to be strong okax...

remember...regardless of what..you have us....all of us...
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he said he loves me...will...loves and like is different...i supposed they are....ha...i know that he is a nice guy...in the beginning..it is my wrongs...though i didn't lie...but..i am wrong...i sincerely apologise to you...

my words are never not harsh when i attitude...that's way i never want to show them to my friends....i am too sarcastic....you know...you experience my harshness before....i dun wish to hurt you...please give up...

your like and love confused me....but....still...there are better ones out there..many many...

cheerss

start learning from the begining again...

2008-10-06T17:28:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,i been through two incident. the first one, i am there but yet i did not do anything. the second, i want to do something but i cannot....just within split seconds, cars braked immediately. if they did not, the little girl will definitely be knocked down...many by the traffic light wanted to go help...just as me too...but it was the colour for the car to go...there are cars which drive in great speed...

the girl was really lucky...she dash diagonally through the intersection...right beside me...i was too naive that i think her parents was behind her...i should have grab her at once...not her facing all coming cars....all cars avoided her...either they stopped...of they cant see her...guess drivers who passed her were shock too....

hope she is doing fine...blessed her...

well..talking about my day...these days nothing much though....been working and going for tuition...one of my student is having her PSLE...so i am going crazy when she's not...not stress...not frighten....hope that's not bad though....when she's taking her mathematics...i could not sleep leh..haha...dunnoe why also...weirdo...

misses all my dearies le....hello helooo....i want to see you all....

lovelove

next 7 days....

2008-09-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

I will be working for the entire week......

That's so ridiculous!!! and start work aGain..

2008-09-24T09:41:00.000-07:00

Mummy's back!! but she is not feeling quite welll...so take care my dearest mummy!!!

Day 3

Breakfast: Bread; Egg; Ham
Lunch : DA PAO
Dinner : Me working; they i dun noe!!

haha...so long never work le...really dun like to work..but no choice yax..wahaha.at home so relax so shuang...

today work, terrible...there are quite a lot of people, and they were nice people though. BUTBUTBUT, never will me forget this man today and tml...he is really very what loh...

He took a shirt, a S$15/xx shirt, and asked if there will be any discount for him. I said/ repiled him, no and apologised i cannot make anymore discount for that already. He said okax...then he ACCIDENTALLY saw a LITTLE blue stain behind the shirt...

He came to me and said so can make the price cheaper. i went to go another piece for him, he checked checked checked then see no problem....then i ask if that's okax....idiot man loh..idiot ...he said he want the ones with the stain and at discounted price...dotxx..

how can he not beaten by anyone till today...so ridiculous man...since you can say you wanted the one with stain...then this means that the stain is not obvious at all...in fact, the blue stain is not....haiyo...weird man...haha...well..i am very kind...haha..never scold him...anyway, i dun dare..

then now my day

today is really ok...normal....wahaha..dotx...

cheers.miss yax to all..

mum's holiday.....us's home!!

2008-09-22T23:51:00.000-07:00

Mummy was on her holidays since yesterday...she will be back tomorrow...wahha...wonder wonder wonder!!!!
these few days..i am the chef of all day...wahaha...

Day 1

Breakfast-Bread (mummy workplace de)
Lunch -fried noddle(6 x crab meat; 2 x egg; 4 x x hot dog; 5 x maggic mee)
Dinner -Sushi + Milo Shake (1 x milo; 400ml warm water; 6 to 8 ice cube)

Day 2

Breakfast-Macdonalds (Sunplaza, Sembawang)
Lunch -Soup of the day (4 x crab meat; 24 x fishballs; 18 x teaspoons mincemeat; 1x chicken essence cube), 3 x egg; 6 pieces x luncheon meat), 2.5 cups of rice
Dinner - Soup of the day (4 x crab meat; 24 x fishballs; 18 x teaspoons mincemeat; 1x chicken essence cube), 3 x egg; 6 pieces x luncheon meat), 2.5 cups of rice

to be continue........

原来是这样

2008-09-21T22:44:00.000-07:00

爱其实很简单

为了爱, 我又哭了. 每天都说要坚强. 每天都哭..

不会停止的想念, 不会结束的爱, 最后只有痛, 伤.

越是想拥有, 到头来也是空白的. 当我不想了, 爱以结了果...

如果以后, 我们有了否定, 一切消失. 梦破灭了.

未来, 我只可以更爱自己.

香烟爱上火柴就注定受伤害,
不要轻易说爱, 许下的承诺是欠下债.
老鼠对猫说我爱你, 猫说你走开,
老鼠流泪走开, 谁也没想到老鼠后, 猫流下一滴泪.
其实有种爱叫做放弃.
风筝风筝只会为一根线冒险,
女人善变的是脸, 男人善变是的心.
在爱情的世界里, 没有谁对不起谁,
只有谁不懂珍惜谁.
遇到真爱不要轻易说离开.
要记得抓紧爱情, 而不是抓伤彼此的感情.
真爱很难寻....

earned Big money!!

2008-09-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

waha..do you ever think that you might become a billionare or at least a millionare in the near future?

How to earn money, lots lots money within a short period of time??

haha...who knows...was talking to a friend not long ago before i post Again!!
haha..."woman can always earn more than any man in earth, only matters if they want or not"

* Do You Agree Or Disagree?
* What's your answer?
* You think woman always hold better advantages than man?
* Man or Woman? - stronger, most Powerful..

Today, i am confused. Why am i confuse? Why? haha..i have been thinking of my future. I remembered last week "we" talked about long and short term plan..i used to think my future till verl well being. haha. but "you" said that short term will do. ..AND I STRONGLY agree to "you".

anyway..after neglecting my diary for like 6 months...haha...diary and i love love once again..haha...

'i will miss you foreva"

2008-09-18T22:51:00.000-07:00

Hi. Does anyone miss the days without me? i wonder.haha.

You know...or anyone know ever knows??

you can definitely not understand what am i saying..

i always dream...visualize...have illusion of these good days that we might have in the future...
i desire..and i really want to...............................

have you
own you
be yours
i am selfish..i know..i am greedy..everyone knows..ha

"Will you miss me for at least a week if i die?"
"I will miss you forever"

just because i asked if you will miss, so you answer miss
if i ask will you remember, will you answer me remember?
or not forget me

i tried my very best to let you go..perhaps you already gone far...but is jus me.
who grab tight and hard. Are you pain?
No!
But i am! in great pain..and always...

I stopped myself from and to you..
I and every single that says i just holded you tight as i dun want to see you with another W.....

i'm really sorry..

but i really want to say, I love you.
deep and never will i want to let go..i can be silly.

if you love me, pleasr walk away. if you don't love me, please stay with me and console me.
please..okay??

alive once again...twice on the way...

2008-07-02T09:20:00.000-07:00

i come back le...boo hoo...welcome welcome...i love this new skin.so nice yor??hahax..yesh.dun care..it is supposed to be nice.

this time round, i will try not to use so much full stop. suppot!!applause!! yeah..thank you thank you.

late not...talk another time yeah...

Regards and cheers
world's biggest shot!

ICA-DONE!!

2007-11-23T06:32:00.001-08:00

wahax..hmm...ICAx done...one more to go..and...two weeks time....been struggling with work...lost track with those those tuitorial yax...hahxax...saturday frisbee day...now...value added with a Volley Ball...wahahaxx....

haix..i misses ...hmm....you noe???!!!you dunnoe??!!!dun talk le....ms lim asked me if something happened between you and me??!!!why no contact..whywhywhy??!!!it's a question to me too....it's truly annoying loh..whahaxxx...dun care....

hmm...i changed my blogskin liao..wahhax...better..??!! or even worse??!!hahax...dun care also....ms lim joining tml...it's her si qi..hahahx....should drown her...this ying nue ren....hahax...

received a call from a sec sch mate...so weirdo yax....so sudden...so randam...wahahx..planning a class gathering....soundx not so bad yax...wondering how's the attendance rate...wahhax....

love & regards
rene

ICA-DONE!!

2007-11-23T06:18:00.000-08:00

wahax..hmm...ICAx done...one more to go..and...two weeks time....been struggling with work...lost track with those those tuitorial yax...hahxax...saturday frisbee day...now...value added with a Volley Ball...wahahaxx....

haix..i misses ...hmm....you noe???!!!you dunnoe??!!!dun talk le....ms lim asked me if something happened between you and me??!!!why no contact..whywhywhy??!!!it's a question to me too....it's truly annoying loh..whahaxxx...dun care....

hmm...i changed my blogskin liao..wahhax...better..??!! or even worse??!!hahax...dun care also....ms lim joining tml...it's her si qi..hahahx....should drown her...this ying nue ren....hahax...

received a call from a sec sch mate...so weirdo yax....so sudden...so randam...wahahx..planning a class gathering....soundx not so bad yax...wondering how's the attendance rate...wahhax....

love & regards
rene

so long long no see!!!

2007-09-27T21:47:00.000-07:00

wahahahxx...finally....i posted one post.....teacher not here..and i so free...hmm.....why leh....??!!!so interesting yax....dotdot....two more weeks ...wahahax....and....i going for a short breakk...wahaahx...i miss my frens.....wahahahxx.....you all miss me.............................................................................

2007-08-08T10:15:00.000-07:00

hmm......i am in opps.....operation wat wat de..hahax.....wanting to go the outlets now...deary....somebody...hahaxx....and many...up there in msc...haahhaxx....i am with a person....in opps...hahahx...dotx.....cry laugh dun noe which one...hahax.....

happi national day man...hahahahxxhhx....love yax...singapore...heex.....muackx....

watched secret today...with deary Kat...hahax....she was hoping that i am a man....hahax....i wish too....at the very moment....so kool.....romance.....wohoo....hahaxx.....it's a good story....touching though....heex....hmm......

went to a camera training......no oxygen loh...dotx.....smoke...smoke...smoke.....they killing me man.....passive smoker....hahax.x....dotx.....drink water to get oxygen...hahax...why???hmm.....water h02 mah.....heex...dotxxxxxxx...................wahahahhxhxhx..

missing missing....missing.....hahahaxx......missinghim.

haiyoyo....

2007-08-01T07:33:00.000-07:00

rotting at home man....doing the same same thingy everyday....nothing "niu".......hhaahx....dotx....black crow black crow black crow....wahahahxhx...catching the ballx....woo....so kool.....

you see??!!...pple who have nothing better to do....tokx crab.....wahahahx....dotx...hai....watever...

i have a question here man....a question which comes up when i handing the clothes...liang yi fu...hahax...=]=]

question::- which is more powerful?? the sun or the water??

difficult to answer right.....heex....which one is the one we cannot live without....hmm...interesting yax....hahahx...

think about it....if you can only choose one to stay....the other must be take away....wat will you choose...hahax....xiang xiang kan ba..heex..

misses all....love all.....okax....

"always stand by you"...you are great...no worries..and enjoys life...muacx muakx muackx...

monday monday...

2007-07-30T03:27:00.001-07:00

confusing the feelingx with truth.....wrongx??right??..how will the world be if feelingx always turn to be truth....??!!...wordeful yax....wat will happen then??? everyday...with many many different question....doubtx doubtx doubtx....

how great will it be if one day..my dreamx are dreamt when i am not sleeping....you noe....thingyx happening without signx....so scary....

they said i should knoe the answer...should i or should i not....dotx....it doesnt dependx on me alone...you noe....dreams will always be dreamx.....miracles???unless.....dotx..hahax

she told me that she willing to do anythingy for him....she really have no regretx...if that the case...why grumble...why complain...why why why.....she said tat doesnt matter if he have or doesnt have any committment to the relationship....she don't care at all as long as she love him....if it is really like tat....why cry...why upset....why???...

sometimes you jus didnt know wat you want...silly gal....you will hurt yourself any one day....it is great that one can always sees thingyx in a more beautiful way than others...but how sure can you be tat these are real...

you thought that will be good enough for you...you think tat you are satisfy with wat you have and wat you feel now....NOW???u sure you feeling good....really sure about your own feelingx....jus an dummy outsider....i seriously think tat.....you have did too much...more than wat you should do....doing more doesnt mean you love more....it's jus a way you want to show you love....

true love doesnt mean like tat...u do understand...but jus couldnt help it....tat life then....even an outsider sees and claims your effort....why doesnt he????dotx.....

you..noe??!!...bbq and etc...thoughtx=]

2007-07-28T21:10:00.001-07:00

haven been quite an interesting day....it's anna de- birthday...and amanda's too....happi birthday to you 2!!..heex....the bbq....oppxi....hahax....real dummy thiny happening....manage to set up tent within 15 minutex....compared to the previous time...they set up for more than half an hour...haahax.....laughing non-stop....but the thingy were really dammmn dammn heavy....dotx dotx dotx.....haiyo....handx real pain not....put my nerves loh....la dao jing...hahax...so dotx..........

miss zalina commentx on my dear blog....she always dunnoe wat toking me....i have no language???no sentence???haahx...wth...haiyo..though she not the first to comment...but...still....rahhhh....so irritating...-_-"dotx...

learnt and heard many thingyx on different relationship...will share soon...next time lah...heex....not share lah...but..hmm....to noe loh....wat tat make sense to me....=]=]

in the tent..hmm....with....XXXXX..

happi birthday anna....we didi it for you man...love yax...

this pic yax...have another one more sedusive..ahahx...oppxi...will kill me man...

we are in the tent....together...missing too much..

hmm...kisses...kisses..hmm....

smile...we cheers....love you gal...anna and palx...muackx yax...

the fire was set up on 5pm....till 8pm...the fire still not set up...wat a failure....we uses more than 2 box of fire starter for this bbq...sooo dotx....that explainx why woman needs man....man are bored with such skill....without doubtx???hmm...i dunnnoe...heeex..

fan..fan...fan...haahahx.....i was fanning to...but all fanning...who take photo???hahax....so i not in here...heex..

the right area of the table....hmm.....

the peeled corn....nono...is....corn skin after peeled...dumb...
national day preview....the helicopter flew passed....and photo was shotted...when the one with e big singapore flag....everyone ran after it...so dotx...funny scene....i am not one who run...i only shouted...hahax...dotx..

again...oppx...i said no "AGAIN" in life...heex..pspsps

happi birthday..this cake waited the birthday gal since 3:30pm to ard 9pm...dotx....miss anna realy very li hai to mo....s-o-s-l-o-w..haahx....

nica na d swet corn....really....full of honey....

to prove tat we have been there....we were near the seafood centre....okax..haahx...

okax...done..more pic will be up soon...maybe???hahax...

i finally knoe why miss fanny said thank you for my advice....my blog..oh man....the thingyx i said have sense loh..do have logic and make real real sense....dun mentionx...heex.....

tkx all..love yax....quite a long one today....hmm...

and....i having confusion...and....i am enjoying life....you do yax....stay happi all times...regardless of watever kinda of thingyx....problems are not problems at all if we dun think they are...okax....enjoy!!muackx...=]=]

u noex???

2007-07-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

i said it..i really do....oppxi..heex...

dun really feel anythingy....fren said tat it's a good sign....feeling a sense of relievex....than disappointment....it's really a sense of relieve...will i feel ps when i see him in future...nopy...hmm...

some said that i really a different person now compared to the past...indeed i am....i noe too...cox of my attachment..the pple around me....but i will says it was a good changed....hmm..heex...

since how many years...i said somethingy like tat again....haiyo..hahax...dotxi....=]=]

will sayx so annoying....so irritating....so stupid....so dumb....so idiot....but..still.....no regretx for my action....jus expressing myself....u noe....heex....sometimes...i dun even know if all thingy are real de..hahax....but..they are loh....see....asking and saying dummy thingy again again....haahxxx..

"never get the same old feelings back..so dun ever says AGAIN.."

"there's only one and only first time...never will there be a SECOND first time.."

"... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ....................."

couldnt help..

2007-07-24T07:31:00.000-07:00

went shopping for bbq stuff...have small chatty with my gal...talk on many thingyx...many

time...we will only think of ourselves...very few we will really give a thoughts for our

partner...really??? are we considered as selfish...or was it just human nature....maybe there is

still a myth to it...we can find out more....??!!....it is really difficult to capture a person

heart...even if are together for many years....if there are still some dislike of this and

that...u have not accepted the person...he/ she is still not yours...or never will be yours..... it is

never easy to accept everythingyx of the person...it takes time....plenty of time....hmm....pple

say love can be as simple as abc....but...why are some people out there suffering from loving and

being love....one can even be hurt when they are loved...so horrible....terrible...dotx..

You said that one day, i might have those courage out of nowhere to do wat i want to do. But, when is that one day? You asked me not to wait. But, you said i can wait; wait and observe. What am i going to do with these advice you gave? You said i experienced once, and am i into it again? You said i can choose to wait. But, do i want to wait? No. Never again will i repeat it. Promised!! Love you, my gal. You're a great one. Always....

my ling gan of the day...=]=]

2007-07-21T09:33:00.000-07:00

working today with those animalx....still as healthy as ever...hahax...i am jus too free to think so many thinky...heex...dotx...

camera....is wat i suddenly thought of....i saw a maid...using the phone's camera to take take her own pictures...all the different angles...hahax...gosh...a maid..doing this in the public...and ALONE!!hahax....jus a comments...okax....

in the past...camera....people will use to take photox that are memorable....take pictures of otherx...the person who own the camera is kool...is sux key...pple think tat they all rich??they hav money???....but this modern urban living....camera are nothing...having a camera is not a trend anymore...it's not anymore for well knowledge or wealthy pple...it's nothing much for shooting others...wat's most impt u caught the right angle of urself....

if a group of pple...not so bad....

if three or four pple...still okax...

if only the one and only person....oh...the best man....

creating all sorts of pose...from top to bottom...back from bottom to top...

left right then right left...then left right again....again and again...

doing an "opps! i did it again".."am i blur?!"..."wat am i doing?"...."it's not me!!"...many many such thingy....real dotxxxxxxx......

even from one to ten..even to twenty....tat day...we created a hundred...kool yax...hahax.

the no. 100....hahax..so dotx...

sometimex, you would even be seeing some sortx of man doing pose like..."hmm...."...."eh..."...."huh?!.."....so so so dotx....i have sample...i mean example..but cannot..copyright..heex....dotx...

having holidayx...at home nothing to do...taking own photox..will sooner later becoming a habi..hahax....so long never take own photo....i took this photo in the toilet....i mean ladies...heex....dotx.....actually ..ladies is real real a great word touse...but to human being...not to cute cute doggie....okax..hahahx...

i tried saying toilet to a person...said ladies to another....the feelingx is real weird actually...will have some sorts of hesitation tat...." i am urgent...pai sei"...but not saying"i want to go toilet"....hahax....

said too much...still have many actually....haahx...next time ba...dotx..watever.....miss yax...some body....any one...anybody...everyone...everybody...haahhx

hahahx...

2007-07-12T09:01:00.000-07:00

hope that everyday will like tat....so happi....think pple really change de...and i really change le...i seldom feel sad sad....like that past..easily affected by huai ren...hhaax...now...no worries man...heex...

i can free and ease myself from many many many many troubles and problemx...heex...friday the thirteen..heex...black friday....
back to topic....she said i changed...i do...change to someone that i am more comfort with...heex...

maybe because of moving to a new phase of my life...though busy with many many thingyx...but enoying life lotx....and missing someone...
heex...

dotx...dotxxxx.....hahax...=]=]
hope all will enjoy life...life can be unexpected....look forward...live with wat u have now...enjoy wat u own now.....

the feeling and thoughtx are so real....love...the affection....missing one....which one????!!!yax???!!!hahahx

all the best in life for all....i mis you ALL......=]=]

said too much think...haiyo!!!

2007-07-07T10:12:00.000-07:00

i truely think tat i have said too much to myself...also to them....wat rubbish am i....really nonsense....sometimes...dun even know wat i am toking....gosh...this moment....i said this...jus within the split seconds...i regreted....

please....give me a clear mind....i am not one that wat u think i might be...i seriously not one like tat....

human life can be jus simple and sweet....but...one can make it a real tough one....why do that to urself....can't u just live as wat u should be....is there anythingy wrong with you???!!!.....insane...nutx...watever....

decided to stop here....but it seems to be a begining....i will regret i know...i really will...but i still said it...sorry....real sorry to myself....i take back....i dun want to stop le...i know wat i am doing...i do....and i will....no regrets...serene's policies....

heexheex...

2007-07-05T23:48:00.000-07:00

the short short comunication that we have yesterday...gosh...the few laughters we had....enjoying the moments....i know i do like him..... i really do..

my dear fren...havin problems with her man....i heard somethingyx that do make a little sense to me yesterday...."during the process of dating...regardless having a girlfren or boyfren, the two person will came across the stage whereby finding one another boring. Having nothing to tok to one another. Being reluctant to continue the relationship.but if can pass this stage, you will love one another more than before. the relationship will be more stable" do u think so??!!

to me...once there is crackx in a relationship...the relationship can never be as good as before...to me...it is so decieving to tell myself that we still like before....and i never believe that there will be thingyx that cannot be compromised....once communication is right....nothing can goes wrong...supposingly...isnt it....my belief....if there is one fightx/miscommunicationx....there can be 2, 3, 4, 5 and many many times in the future....

"DUN MAKE EVERY WORD A LIE"

"DUN MAKE YOURSELF A LIAR"

i seriouly think that love can be noble...please treasure love...please please dun make people sees love as a weapon that hurts....treasure the love..treasure relationshipx...regardless of kinship, friendship or relationship....love them....show them you love and care...not jus say...actions speak louder than words....

why how yax...ehm....

2007-07-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

wat's going on with me....i also dun noe leh...guai guai de....hmm.....i think i too scary le....really loh...hahahx...and my wordx really say le bu yong qian...hahax...-_-"...dun noe me wat de wrongx....hahahx....can anyone tel me the definition of "better friend"?!...wat meaning ar???heexheex....he confuse me le...again...wat thinking ar...watever....woohoo...holidayx...soon....kool yax....but later stopover le....hahahx....-_-"...erh.......having bbq.....my bao bei birth.....and my class de.....maybe and with those siao cha bo one......heexxheex....yax..yax....loving all pple...missing all pple....heexheex....=]=]miss yax...and enjoy life....muackx...=]

2007-07-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

love yax...this picx....muack anna....love love..jiayou..we!!

heexheexx,.....enjoying life mah....!!=]

aiyo...hide hide hide ...wat???

look here!!!miss yax...

not feeling well de loh....dotx..heex....

water dripping all dayx.....dotx...-_-"

by miss lim wenli....

by wenli too...again....!!

the "remember love" song...and "chinese pig" songx...heex..=]

today arh.....heexheex...

2007-06-27T05:44:00.001-07:00

limei...this is the one u want...haahx....
this car hor....on the road cannot drive properly de....always broom broom broom...dotx....watever...

today return the goodx le..hahx..finally ar...heex....that limei go with me...and i drank the anything drink....heng heng not jasmine tea...hahahx...dotx....

today lesson...tml do presentation..dot...though is not formal de lah...watever....heex....i haven even start loh...dotx...hees...that two pigs must have gone movie...never reply loh...dotx....=]

cyax...miss yax....enjoy....=]=]heexheex...

hahahaxheexheexdotx..dotx....and watever....

2007-06-26T07:36:00.000-07:00

starex......wat on??!!=]=]heex..

shot....the katkat..the stinky jun...heexheex..

fire..fire..fire.....

play water...-_-"..hahhax...smilex.

this gal....act fierce bu fierce...dotx..hahax..

my mode is actually good today...laugh laugh laugh...smile smile smile....but....that suupliers....haiyo....actually is right de loh..then hor...ask ask ask....i hesitated.....did i or did i not...thought this time die....mr chong saved it...he's real good man...pro...heex..dotx....

i have many confusion now though....still lots to think..acutally can dun think le.but yet they cannot be chased out at all....so dotx loh...that dumb gal come my house say wat...want to revise test ay my house...hahax...come hear..watch tv....eat eat eat...doottx.......loh....watever.....

back to it first...geeting a packet of duck rice???hahhax...make me feel a sense of guilt loh....guilt..u know....so tong ku loh....nei jiu leh...not play play de leh...i every second every minutex also thing of him...my teacher..haix....real deep deep de zui er gan...hai...xx....

wendy...u reading now...then...i have somethingy to tell u.....important hor..listen ar....only for u hor....dun let otherx know.....okax...promise.....okax....."i not like u, idiot"....ddoottx.....oppx...-_-"telling me story yax..okaoaxokax.....=]..

milo freeze is a cursed-by miss lim w.l.....hahhax...should have take milo oreo crunch....the two pigx who take milo freeze..hahax....lao sai...

fren...darlingx men.....honey men....bao bei men....dear men....i niss yax...miss yax...enjoy life and stay kool and good....jiayoujiayoujiayou.....hheexx....ddddddddooooooooooooottttttttttxxxxxxx..

slack slack....dotx...

2007-06-25T03:00:00.000-07:00

today!! heexheex....enjoying..but stomach a lot of the butterfly..dotx...now still very de pain...dotx...tml ica wor....many still stauggling through.....3 little gal still in school chit chatting...dotx man....slack slack in school.....real bo liao...all the gossiper....hahahx...=]=]...dotx.....today lesson so fun....heex...missing my fren...tat little cindy nv come....hmm...look after dog...wth....-_-"...dotx....ar.............want to lao sai man...really want to lao sai.....oppx....hahahx..heex...dotx....watever....-_-"....wonders what doing everyone...heex....missing one another mah??!!ar?!...heexheex....all little galx...miss yax....miss wendy yax....so u read my blog de ar...no need to read lah....everyday see me...can jus ask me...okax...haahx...heex....muackx..miss yax....miss tat jj???that linS???all my clique...hahahx...miss all human leh...so many to miss..start with which one leh...??!!...oppx...heex....enjoy life....miss yax....study study study....=]=]=]

dotx...-_-"

2007-06-21T06:30:00.000-07:00

o9oo - 1o3o : having PM lesson....
1o30 - 12oo: slack in school.....
12oo - 1320: lunch at the cheap cheap and nice nice hawker....
1320 - 1400: at south canteen...
14oo - 1408: realised i lost my coinx pouch....
14o8 - 1620: break...go photocopy thingy...
somethingy seems cannot be changed....
somethingy seems to be fixed there....
reluctant.....hesitationx.....
162o - 17oo: back to the CS lesson......
17oo - 1725: slack slack.....talk talk....think think...
think everytingy is jus a smokescreen...
feeling a little bad.....feeling so weird....so sorry...
1725 - 1750: reached sembawang le.....tok to them....
1750 - 1810: walk home....
saw him......
181o - 183o: mgs him....walk in shop n save....never feel so lost before....
183o - 19oo: did all thingy that need to be done.....
19oo - 21oo: know wat really wants....
understand myself.....
get the fact right.....
the right feeling....heexheex...
finally....yesh!!=]
2149: posted this....
miss yax...=]

cheap cheap lunch...

2007-06-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

today...another day....the pm lesson..hahax....bored.....dotx...heexheex....that dumb yijun....make me speehles....told her AM...she really believed...haiyo....

went to fix that wendy shoe..haiyo...$1.00....cheap loh.....eat beancurd...$0.40/bowl...cheap....drink soya milk..$0.40...cheap....eat lor mee..$2.00.....cheap again....hahahx...=]==]..cheap cheap cheap..wat a cheap day...oppx...dotx.....

went back to that A302A....the feeling is really gone...jus as wat others said...it's different le...it is not our rrom le....haiyo....==]=]=]-_-"......

i misses misses the room....room of laughters.....room of warmth...room of friendship...room of memories....room of love..hahaxx..heex...

the feelings are weird these few dayx....somehow seems reluctant to do somethingy....but jus have to do it....no one force me to do so..but .....dotx....dun noe wat toking me again....

dumb pigs....said dun noe wat i typing alays...." look who toking"...dotx....heexheex...=]=]=]

miis all pple....wat..hahahx.....

tell me how to feel/know/undersatnd that the love is true????u know any way to know??!!!ar...heex.....

trust...respect.....do u have in you....??!!! dumb....dotx...-__-"

missyax...=]

he said he "miss" me...dotx...

2007-06-19T03:41:00.000-07:00

hmm...sound so weird...hahx.ax.....didnt know wat's going on now....been thinking of many redundant thingyx....dotx....thought the feeling is really an illusion..dotx..erm....it's seem like it is not....

she said that i did the wrong thingy...she says i dun like him de loh...hahax...watever...haiyo....dotx....heeheex...is it a good thingy which that even his fren know the thingys between the two of us...heexheex...gosh..wat toking me man...dotx...dotx......................................................gosh.....hahahxx....

she says she can sees AI MEI in me...oppx...hahahx....=]=]=]oh really....hahxhahxax....

muack muack muack..to all pple hahahx....=]=]

haix...

boredom....=]

2007-06-18T07:03:00.000-07:00

haiyo..haiyo...hahax....today first day of classical....first lesson...so bored...i hate lesson.....opps....cannot cannot hate..must love....still have so many daysx to go....long long way to go man.....haiyo....

cannot find the pool place at grassroots...hahax....=]=]from 13:00 searched till 13:28.....die die dun want to call those woman...i said i wanted to find the way there myself de....heexheex....dotx...man....

my time are precious man...take train for fun ar???!!...hahahx...heexheex...dotx.....

wat's going on now??!!...i also not sure abt the situation now...dotx dotx dotx....

i fell from the chair......within split secx.....gosh...turn the head away...turned back...I'M GONE....dotx man...lucky that armpit gal never see...if not....she will die....laugh till death...dotx...gosh.....the chair sux man...-_-"

real real tired..
having an early night ....twelve???eleven????one ????erh................watever...

miss yax..love yax.....muack muack muack....

"i might not like him...but it's always for yoursel to make a choice....i do it my way...u have it in you way too....i always be with you...always behind u....take care ar....remember...silly gal...dotx......"

heexhaax...

2007-06-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

kat kat kat....today specially come visit me during my office hous...hahahax....love and miss you all loh...hahahx.....h=jus saw the past year emrs video at youtube....i misses my emrs man...so so so much man....hahahxx.....

now asking someone to send those memories to me...happi happi....i miss miss so much loh...haix....

monday...wanting to have lunch with mr ice man.....but like too fast le...but miss tay says hor....must fast...action...dun drag drag drag.....i supposed is it ba...but will it be weird...wont ba....only wiith those disturbance then weird loh..

tml father's day...happi father's day too al...muackx....

is the first time i like tat...so long since.....when...i also dun remember le....hahax...dotx....tomorrow...another new day...new life ahead...hahx...missing all pple..love love love....heexheex....

hahahaxxx

2007-06-15T08:17:00.000-07:00

thingx jus happened so sudden loh...only one week...everythingy change....you noe...??!!...hhaahahaxxxx....dumb loh...hahaxxx....

so many loh....i know a good man..hahaaxx...so nice..so kool...in somehow or rather sense....understooded de mah????hahahaxx....thingyx are going well lah...i enjoying life...u???hahahxx?????hahahx......

today.....15th June 2007....05:42PM.....officially out of emrs...events managements and road show...hahax....my attachments....love all pal there....you...you...you...you...and you all.....hahahx...so many man....we going classical le.....wooohoo.....

today went to school real early to sit at the stairs...so much memories in the room....happi....unhappi....lovely....sweet...hahahxxx...dots.....

today...playing many games..hahahxx....hit foot.....i was rape by many many galx....actually only 4 lah...but 4 a lot le loh....dumb....hahahxx...loving them jus so much..i not trying to be les...but i really love you galx man....guys too...oppx...hahax....

that thingy is not an illusion or watever...it is real....the feel ...hahahax....dotx.....

true or dare.....then change to dare or double dare....dare = do two times....wat the diff man...real dumb....i did nothing much though...hmm.....him..hahahx...hua chi loh....

jus went eateat shopshop with that dumb sj....hahahx....she says i am xing fu loh....wahahahaxhhax....of course i am......hahhax...always de loh....=p......loving....see these pic ....my room....my galx...and etc...hahahxx....heexheex....

of course cannot left my pretty pretty face out...hahahxx....

love love love....muackx.......hahahx...

haixhaixhiax...how leh???!!!-_-"

2007-06-12T08:25:00.000-07:00

i never ever imagine that somethingy like that will happen....haix....i never want to put it up here either....i cannot make myself do somethiny like tat...i jus cant be one...like that....=[...the urge....

confession??!!hahaxxhax...seems to be so easy..but...i cant jus do it like that....my mind is not set....the length of time???? ....i wouldn't dare to make myself face the consequences that may or might happen if i....how can he be so cruel to me....leaving me with so much hesitations....can always say that i am the one who think that much...i jus couldnt help it....it is jus so ridiculous....

i am onto someone....someone that i get to see everyday....it is jus the....i didnt want to say good byi....i jus dun want to.....you are overwrote...whether if it's temporary or permanent....gosh....dun like you lah....stupid man....still wondering how much of u is still within me....i really wonders.....

that someone...---some said to be illusory...it is false....unreal....hallucinatory....wat's these thingyx...can't it jus be real...at leats a little real.. will do....

i actually said to them about this....it jus sound do real....but why....haiyo....the feel....understandable??...a good man?!...one who caught my eyes?!...caught me?!...take up some space jus inside me?!...understand....

so fun..i love my teamx....=]=]

2007-06-08T08:32:00.000-07:00

wahahaahxx...so fun man...today.....laugh til siao loh..hahahaaxxxx.ahahaxx....the last day of my events..also the last day of the last events i have.....=]=]....love my group mamber lotx...man.....and laos....love my booth mate....they all so kool...so good...great people loh......love love love..hahahxx....

after the events.....in a room...three pigx come and touch my breastx....dumb....my high speech screamx scared them off..hahax....all day long.....touch touch touch......oppx...hahhax......me...real real...hahax....very fun loh...will miss all of them.....

the new man...so kool....stupid limwenli.....way ckp.....u want die ar......my booth have a man...a kool man....he is....hahaxxhax..."mi mi...cannot tell....hahahx.....hao hao nan ren...ar....i not ti koh loh.....it is natural lah...hahahx.....got many picx....next time then show...hahax....=]=]so fun.....

think to say to my booth matex...:-

" you might not have read wat i type here...but it's all for you....truely from the heart...though this was the first and the last time we worked together...i real enjoy it...ouln't really express myself....the real feeling as a team though some of us only known jus for 1/2 dayx....love you all man....the strength we have...our supports within the heartx....so nice so real....i never will forget any of you....especially...the one and only man of the booth...hahahx....ckp again.....i am not.....-_-"...hahax....appreciate man..love yax..mis yax..and enjoy life..."

second day of it....=]=]

2007-06-07T06:14:00.000-07:00

look at this dumbwoman....here birthday leh....hahxhax=]
me and the kat...pple presenting..we taking photox...=]=]..dotx...
act innocent loh....this woman again....haiyox...-_-" dotxxx..

haxhaxhax...only one more day for the event.....heex....enjoying myself man....one more week in emrs...miss all man.....my team...other teamx.....love yax...hahax...=]....real tired actually...

today got know of many thingyx....haix...life is so.....tough...yet intresting...someho and rather lah....missing my friendx lotx.....

that man...him...the only him loh....shit him man...wat the hell.....dumb loh....si ah beng.....-_-"...

i selling many thingyx now...having my prsonal selling...asking my frenx to buy...but good loh...dun want oso didnt say...us dun reply....dumb....Mr. Tan....you....pig man....-_-"...i also selling the slippers...i think not so bad loh..the design....dumb man..think cannot........haix...oppx...dotx...-_-"...

hope to break my target....60 pairs....but actually i want to sell more more loh.....but hor....under some circumtances..you understand de.....=]=]

look at this pic...hahax...so koool...and...having laughters and fun....haxhaxhax....

haxhahahaxxx..big wor...

is big de loh....so fun...=]

i will miss you all man....

i told another person abt him ....oppx...hhaaax..but she is a good one loh....the 70% ...hahaxx..=]=]show her pic next time...hahax...=]=]

enjoy life....miss yax...

muackx muackx...

todaytoday....hahax...oppx...bad and good...

2007-06-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

i thought XXX XXX and me....today i like a bit attitude...not so polite to pple....but...those i hack care loh....they are.....XXX are......haiyo.....-_-".....=]=]today everyone see me...ask me...."Aaa...serene...u cut hair ar..."-__"...dotxx.....then my hair drop arh....oppx.....haxhax...=]=]my new short hair...actually not this short loh...i point at the shoulder length....the first cut ....i noe...die...then so short....haix...but...make the hair cut worthwhile..okax loh....cut short loh....=]=]...

hahaxx...my deardearfren sick...may dhe get well soon....love yax...=]=]...these fews dayx..some kept on saying i like lesbian....siao...dumb...wat the hell-_-"...i like "man" loh...please loh....u all know wat...dumb....-__"haahaxx....dotxxx...man........u know right???hahaxx..gal cannot hold gal handx ar...

hahax....about six to seven hours ago...i kissed.....that gal...kat...-_-"...mouth to mouth wor....haxhax....sujeng sayx:-eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.....hahax...dotx....today....i saw....hahax....i couldnt tok...dunnoe wat to say man....my handx turn cold...gosh.....trembling man.....gosh...hahax....dunnoe is XXXXX or XXXX hahahxxx.....=]=]

though my blog...but why is....???

2007-06-01T07:21:00.000-07:00

haxhax...look at all this photox....oh my gosh...this gal....she is wendy....taking photox....with my phone...told she lovex me lotx.....oppx....see....hua chi man...dun blame me ar...gal...love u lotx...tooooooooooooooooo...virus????or not????-__"

now now now.....

2007-05-30T01:48:00.000-07:00

type a few words i oso siong...cannot ar.....lim wen li...-_-"...you dumb....hahax....we now toking about .....the song is nice....redwan Ail song..:-would you be there???i have leh...take from me...hahxhax....kisses and huggs to all.....love yax...happi vesek day tooooooo...=]=]

my day of the day....love yax.

2007-05-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

today really a day of somethiny..hahax.dunnoe wat talking me ba..hahaxx....love all my frenx first....regardless how long i know uuuuuuuuuuu.......heexheex...okax...love me too....

yesterday....fishes die......see....before is yelow yellow de...

die de turn this colour...haiyo...pray for it man.......sad de sad de....=]=]

look at this cute cute de litle gal.....so cute.....hahaxx....she jus called me and tell me she going to sleep liao.....hahaxx....good night to you too...=]

see...this gall.....my handphone again.....dun blame me for posting the picx...okax.....my phone picx usually post up de.....hmmm..okax...i know u wont....u love me..dun u....u do rigth.....oppx....i wont let pple know de...oppx......hahaxxx-__-"

today finish the work...that man..that dumb man...tok tok lah....whisper for wat....dumb man....tok to this man will die loh...so diao....

this thursday have program on...having the frisbee....hahahxx...with clique and guyx....hahaxxx....frisbe...bishan parkk......join join..join......=]=]=]=]call ar....count yourself in man...love yax.....=]=]

now talking to the gal who i misses and who misses me......she will be the upcoming ocbc gal....haahxx..oppx...."butterfly and u are two diff thingy..take note please..."...gal....

today saw something like tat...kool...cute not.....is actually a pair of slippers loh...can see clearly..and only $5.90....cheah hor....hahaxx...

no good byex......

2007-05-25T02:58:00.000-07:00

today....the day....25th of May 2007...she is going to her IPP....another new experience....isnt that great.....life time experinecex..... ....=]=]...memories for 1 dayx....will last for a life-time..

isnt it....i never like to say good bye....understoooded....=]=]

now...

someone took a picture of herself....with my handphone...dun noe why?????hahxx.hahxxx...this gallll..gagaaxxhaxxx...dumb.....-__-"

went to eat sakae sushi...hahaxxx..so kool....an annoying gal and a real annoying boy challenge who ate most....they are all loser man..hahaxxx....me..the one and only me....ate many many many....hahaxxxx.....wendy starexxxxxxxxx......hahaxxx....

"somethingy real weird...tat i...hahaxxx....i blow the sushi...hahaxx...silly man... ...and they all starex...asking is the sushi hot???real diao loh...-_-"

i saw a long time no see friend....QUEENA....hahaxx....her yougest sister came on tat day...hahahxxx...we had lots of fun...lucky have her on the day....i am bored...cox business isnt that good,......she played with me...though she is young...but oso very yellow....-_-"...but she is cute cute cute..real interesting little little gal...hahaxx...=]=]

she is the galll....zina....cutie cutie...=]=]

enjoyning life now...hahaxx...miss yax al.....wanting to go kayating.....anna....booked you le...hahaxx....anyone interested...zalina.....xinlin????hahaxx..

true>>relationship.....& ....

2007-05-18T06:06:00.000-07:00

a bit a bit confuss of wat's really going on....sometimes u really can feel the tension in between pple....human beings can be real scary in times....how...wat should we do.....we......do.......pple can be

real good and nice

to u, but that always physically...you never knows wat these pple are thinking inside them....

hatred??unwilling??detestable??depiscable??....

who are they actually???wat are they doing in others pple life....

somethingy to post today.....>>>
"we have been dealing with each other since ... ... ..."
"we can be so far to each other, yet so near ... ... ..."
"we can be so near to each other, yet so far ... ... ..."
"let nature takes it place--wat a deceiving phrase to be used ... ..."
"how far can we go?? ... ... ..."
"i love him....you know???" -_-"

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question of the day???>>>
how true can true be true???

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the day--wat a day....i might have to jump bus in some time soon....-_-"

2007-05-16T06:16:00.000-07:00

today can said to ba an interesting day...however...haix...many mny first....

it's my very first time to laugh till no voice...and worst still....my throat very pain loh...-_-"..that pig...lim ??? li....wth...-_-"

take buses...around singapore....loh...."DAY TOUR IN SINGAPORE-_-"......laugh laugh walk walk...eat tutu....laugh laugh walk walk again.....the BUS.....

the bus 147...is 147..not 174..not 714...not 741...is 147.....spoiled in the middle of nowhere but the road....

we hor...didnt even noe tat..until....yah..hahaxx...

the bus left with no pple...not even a soulx...hahaxx.....

wat a day man-_-"....

today oso hor...run for the bus....change bus, change bus and change bus....dun noe wat doing us too....cannot think...

my hand of the day.....done by Si Wei....hahaxx..

Question of the day:- this watch....i want to buy....i think is nice...is it??

nice nice nice?????=]=]

enjoy life...stay happi....=]=]=]

uuuuu

2007-05-15T00:45:00.000-07:00

i today off day....hmm...kool..hahaaxxx...wondering wat to do at home leh...oppx...-_-"...

went swimming with the zhu-jeng...-_-"...today:- she said many many if if if.....wat if the if really if....how...weird weird de....
hahaxxx...cannot catch the ball i throw right....????....hahahaxx....

when start swimming hor...recalled wat the ??? yueting says...."be careful dun drown"...-_-"....i very careful today loh....haiyo...hahaxxx=]=]

i miss i miss and i miss.....do u???????????....will u????????? or can u??????????hahaaxxx......still catching no balls.....hahaxxx..-_--"

want to slap me....pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyyuck..pic-puck..pic-pyuck..pic-pyuck......hahaahahaxxxxxx..

Questions of the day:-
wat do u prefers???? "hugs" OR "kisses" ???..-_-"

Now...This moment...

2007-05-14T01:49:00.000-07:00

we never will knows wat other people is thinking...but we must be sure that we know whats our stand..wat we want...haxhax..

" i feel so suffocate in this place...."
"who i am"
"wat i really am?"

thingys can be really out of hand when no ones want to take control of it...

be back later.....tkx...=]=]cyax

oh yah...my mother de day de cake...=]=]

2007-05-13T05:02:00.000-07:00

step no.1 :- durian roll x 2 and then
put onto the plate..=]

step no.2:- cut strawberry then put nice nice
by the side of the durian roll x 2...=]=]

step no.3 :-
arrange the slice peach
onto the durian roll x 2...nice right...=]=]

step no. 4:- put green grapes onto the
durian roll x 2...and done...happi
mother de day...=]=]woohoo!!

eeee picxxxxx...

2007-05-13T04:54:00.000-07:00

my first one...

2007-05-13T04:28:00.000-07:00

my first post...hahaxxx..like so mountain mushroom...-_-""hahahaxx....watever....nothing better to say..but first.....why i cannot post photos here ar????????why?????????cannot leh..try try try le....haix..nvm...first time mah..but somethingy wrong loh...
haix....today mothers de day....happi happi mothers de day...hor..hahaxx..to all my frenx....

noon met 2 man and 1 woman...1 man actually forget he meeting me...still slping at home...wth..-_-"....dotxxxxxxx..........and my dear hor...went out with her lover...gosh......haix.....i make a cake today...(my cake and mr.low cake diff)..-_-"hahaxxx...using durian rollxx...strawberry...peach...grapexx......this love cake is for my dearest dearest mummy...love..love..love x forever....=]=]

haiyo..cannot post photos....i have a lot to post leh...frenx...where are you.....................